Weeks 7,8,9: Disorientation Phase

The stage of realization that things are different. The person feels inadequate to cope with the expectations of the new environment and experiences feelings of doubt and isolation. The latter part of this phase brings irritability and feelings of hostility toward the new people and surroundings for being unfamiliar.

(From http://iml.jou.ufl.edu/projects/Spring04/DeJesus/page2.html)

Hello, Please, I want to be your friend.

Please, I just want to be your friend, why don’t you want to be my friend?

Because I’m on my way to class,  f**ker

Inhale. Let the air fill your lungs.

Please, you lost points because of presentation…

I didn’t want to tell you in class because I didn’t want to embarrass you, sweetheart

Excuse me?

Hold it in. My Lungs are on fire.

Hello dear, I hope you understand the solution. It’s obvious. I’ll write it up clearer and send it to you.

I KNOW WHAT YOU DID I’M TELLING YOU A SPECIFIC PART OF YOUR WORK IS WRONG MOTHER F**KER

Let it out. The lungs contract and scream for air. Breathe. Reset.

You are a very special friend.

I barley know you.

Inhale

I’m angry because I can’t have what I want.

You have a girlfriend, what about what I want?

Pull for more

 “HOW ARE YOU DOING EM, I AM STILL ALIVE, TEX ME WHEN YOU CAN, I LOVE YOU DAD!”

No…still don’t want to deal with this.

Don’t think about the pain

Mrs. Ward is survived by her husband…Her daughters…Her step-sons…Her step-daughters…Her Brother…Her grandchildren [step-grandchildren here]…Kyle Zucker, Emily Zucker…

Why are her step-kids and step-grandchildren, who she barley talked to, listed before her own brother and grandchildren?

Breath it down. Deep. Away.

I am praying for you always. My soul and your soul are one, granddaughter

I love you, Greg

Release. Yet some things don’t want to leave…they stick inside, no matter how hard I cough or cry. Tears stream down my smiling cheek.

The wizards have shown themselves.

Is that Ok…is that OK…IS THAT OK? …That should be OK.

Yes, annoying professor, everything is OK.

Everything is OK.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s